Freedom to Choose!!!

For me it is hard to break habit, especially with old friends that you have done stuff with for years. Like going to the movies and having a large popcorn (NO SHARING) loaded with lots of hydrogenated oil (I am killing myself with every bite, LITERALLY), a large cherry coke and some candy. What happens when you go to a Friends house, and they have made dinner and dessert just for you, then what??? Do you eat the cake and the potatoe soup? Well, this is really just another personal choice. Will you gain ten pounds and fall over dead from that one meal? NOT LIKELY! If you are in a place that day where you feel eating like that would sabotage everything you are working for, then you are better off declining, then indulging. Besides you are there with friends who love you and would rather see you happy and healthy than eating the food they made. The point to all this is to go within and re recognize your freedom of choice and free agency. tap in to your boundries, not what they were, but what they are today. We are all given challenges; we are also all given the knowledge to make positive change in our lives. This is fact, and truth NO ONE can dispute. Knowledge is not something that always comes to you, sometimes you have to go out, research, and find it, but it is always there.

Smoothie Fun

Well, I am saved by the ever sweet taste of fruit. Not to worry though I wrapped in some serious greenage. How you might ask? Well, Simple really I am making amazing smoothies in my blender with fruit and Lot's of vegies. My kids love them and things are good. I am kinda nervous about our food supply. We have money but it is going fast and I don't have the stock needed to sustain out daily food requirements. I know I can figure this out, wish me luck.

Planning

Well, I am here to reassure everyone that things don't always go according to plan. Today, the money we thought we had to spend on food was nonexistent. So I had to go to plan B, cereal and milk. This is only because all other foods sources were donated to my brother with the exception of a turkey, some cilantro, parsley and a little rice. So you can imagine the most scrumptious meal we are having tonight.

I really want to put the word out about this book I have called, "The Garden of Eating". I am so amazed with all the information that is in this book. The book is easy to read and easy to follow; it is set up with people like me and you in mind. For every good idea/suggestion in the book there are at least two or three ways you can achieve this goal/step.

Success is something that is made in many steps, not just one big jump. I am so happy to be alive. I did good today despite the opposition with no money for food. Minor set back, but we will overcome it.

My husband is an amazingly awesome and supportive person; he is jumping in with me. He doesn't say a word about how big I am and he treats me no different with all the weight I have put on. Our relationship is actually stronger, and I feel like I am past my own doubts and demons and am ready to heal my body.

Well, that is all for tonight. Remember even when you think there is nothing to make you can go foraging in the depths of your freezer and find forgotten hidden treasure.

Fat Girl Goin' Thin

Cleaning Out

Hello again well, today I took a jump out into uncharted waters and boxed up everything that I had in my house that was processed, packaged and or canned. With the exception of some tomato soup, which my daughter loves. I went off the deep end and bought two huge bars of chocolate and some ice cream stuffed my face and hate myself now. I am ready to Begin. Tomorrow I am going to the store and buying all foods needed for several meals and will spend the day preparing and freezing ready made meals. I will be preparing many of my vegetables and fruit so that I will have of course, ready to eat snacks on hand. My goal is to get down to two meals a day with a 16 hour fast at the end of each day. So eating at 8 and 3 and then fasting till the next day. I am tired of being consumed by food. My life is, no, has been taken over by food. I am a victim, and a product of our government, and the dark forces of this world. Today I say no more I am ready for a change and choose now to be freed from all the chains that hold me bound. I will wake to eggs and bacon (turkey) and will face the day with a prayer in my heart and faith by my side. I can do this. I know I can. The Lord gives me strength. Till next time.

Fat Girl Goin' Thin

SUGAR

I LOVE FOOD. Better yet I LOVE TO EAT!!! I was once under the impression that in order to be healthy and fit I would have to give up everything I know and love. 1. NO SUGAR!!! Except for that fake wanna be sugar crap, RIGHT??? WRONG!!! Sugar is defiantly aloud, and you can eat the good stuff. In fact eating the real, unprocessed, man made crap is what your body responds best to. When you are drinking/eating the no sugar, no taste, no nothing but chemicals soda, candy, gum, food, and whatever else you can think of. You are actually sending a signal to your brain that says "hey where is the sugar"? Then your body will automatically crave and seek out the real stuff. Could this be why I undoubtedly fail every time? I am forever forcing myself with this no sugar rule, most diets have, and then picking up the other rule that says eat this fake sugar instead. Not only does it destroy your gut if you eat to much, but in the end you are left feeling unsatisfied. Your cravings for real sugar take over your entire body and you give up and within a short amount of time you fail. You go on a major overeating binge and then gain back the 2 pounds you lost and 10 more. (That is what I have always done anyway) Thus, defeating the purpose of the soda/food in the first place. For me I guess it has always been I'll do it tomorrow and when tomorrow comes I am overcome with a major addiction, urge, craving, an uncontrollable desire that needs to be satisfied, to EAT or rather to INDULGE! Even though the night before I went to bed sick to my stomach, mad as heck at myself, and vowing I would never eat junk food again (SWEETS)! Often times I gorge myself, you see, I will eat some good food and feel like now that I have that out of the way I can eat some yummy (by yummy I mean seriously sugary) stuff. One chocolate ice cream for me, and a couple for the taste buds, and before you know it the box is gone and I'm driving to the store for more. One thing you should know is that SUGAR is a DRUG! Just like COCAINE only instead of making you thin and whacked out you get fat and whacked out. The same need is filled in your brain sensors with sugar, meth, cocaine, alcohol you name the drug, they all trigger the same effect in the brain. The point is, if you are using sugar for anything more than a weekly or monthly treat you are an addict. The best way to stop something like this is cold turkey. 1. Get everything out of your house that contains sugar in it! EVERYTHING!!!! Donate it, trust me you are not strong enough you will relapse and in a few weeks you will hate yourself again. Sugar is intended as one of life's pleasures not a staple as it has become to most all of us. You may think, I don't eat much sugar. If you are eating anything off of the shelves like, chips, soup, crackers, bread, peanut butter, jelly, honey anything that you can think of that you buy from the store that has been built, processed or prepared for you, it all has SUGAR in it. PROMISE. Check it out! Companies do this so you keep coming back, just like with drugs! Moral to the story... Eat SUGAR as a treat! Once a week or even better once a month and when you do have the real stuff. Real as in whatever you can get that has the least processing done to it. (AGAVE NECTAR is pretty good) When you do, don't eat the whole tub of ice cream or a bag of whatever; instead get something very rich and satisfying that will quench your need and satisfy the want.

I for one am taking back all that I have given to the demon of sugar. I am going back to the old day's of livin' when ice cream was a rare occasion and chocolate bars meant Christmas or Halloween. When sweets usually meant someones birthday, a promotion or anniversary. My journey begins with this first #1 rule. Sugar is a special treat! Wish me luck!!

Signing off for now,

Fat Girl Gone Thin